Holidays Hurt

Ever ugly cry to Feliz Navidad? You wouldn't think it was possible. I did today. My dad used to sing that song and do a silly dance when I was a child. Emotions are crazy. It was heart warming remembering him that way, and heart breaking because I know it will never happen again. No more singing, no more dancing, no more Christmas's. No more ... anything, because he's gone.

God, I just miss him so much. My heart hurts more than I ever thought was possible. It's been 7 months. I think about him everyday. When does it stop hurting like this?