I feel like an idiot...

I’m a week late and haven’t tested cause I’m nervous about the result wishing for bfp...

So me and s/o finished having sex for first time in four days cause I just haven’t wanted too and I just randomly broke out into tears because I wanted lemon water and the one I have didn’t taste right and then I continued to cry because I feel like my body isn’t my own...

Anyone else experience something like this...