I’m overly emotional

I just had a baby. My husband has been out of town. We got into a fight on the phone and he hung up in my face a billion times. We fought about me having pp depression. He said so everyone around you has to suffer because your hormonal? And I said he didn’t understand then it escalated from there. So we cool off and I call back and he says he is sorry and that he needs me to suck his dick really good and I need to be nice and it made me cry because I find it repulsive . I’m all over the place .