Struggling

I gave birth last week on Thursday. On Friday when we got home I had a huge wave of emotion crash down on me, and had a massive panic attack. Yesterday and today, I feel empty. I’m terrified for the future, and that I just can’t do this. I’m anxious. I’m crying. I can’t sleep. I don’t want to eat (but I do, really only for the baby). This little human is relying on me for everything, and I feel like I can’t even keep myself together.

I know no one goes into this knowing what they’re doing, but it’s the fear of the unknown that is fueling my fire.

Anyway...thanks for reading...