So currently there are two million families with deployed soldiers. And it seems to me at least being an army wife that I’m expected to be strong for my soldier, be strong for my family, hold down the fort, take care of the kids (w/o a break ever) and I’m supposed to be happy about it.

But no one ever seems to talk about what it’s really like.

So I’m going to say it all right now.

I’m tired, I’m only human. Everyone needs a brain break. I get that deployments are going to be part of our army family life, but I don’t have to like it or want it, or enjoy it. What kind of sick person thinks “yay I’m so glad I get to see what it’s like to be exhausted 24 hours a day with no mental, physical, or emotional break for the next year!” Wahoo bring it on!

Like no body ever. Maybe I’m just extra frustrated because I’m sick so I’m extra tired.

But today when the plumbers came (to dig out the slab on our basement and put drain tiles in. Because real life still happens when soldiers are gone.) The door opened and closed and my first thought was oh my husband is home and for just a millisecond I felt relief. And then I realized obviated it’s the plumbers and we are not even to the half way point.

Today I’m tired and I’m human and I can only do sooo much.