17 days late- last update

I set up an appointment with my OB/GYN because I’ve never been more than 3 days late before. I know it’s super, super wishful thinking but I’m hoping that on Monday when I go in he says “you’re pregnant, duh” I’ve taken 12 pregnancy tests and all of them have been negative except 1 I took at 12dpo that had a faint line or an indent. So please please please send me baby dust and prayers.

Update:

Today is my appointment. Exactly 21 days late. Day 53 of cycle. I woke up to my period. Of course I did. I’m disappointed and I just want to cry.

Update #2:

So I got my blood drawn and my doctor doesn’t think it’s an imbalance, but wants to double check. I have another appointment in a few months to talk about fertility therapy. But he was so optimistic and said he’ll be seeing me again. My OB/GYN is the nicest doctor I’ve ever had. He took such great care of me when I had my missed miscarriage and when my daughter was diagnosed with anencephaly.

So, I don’t want to cry anymore.