Just need to let everything out😢💔

TTC journey has been horrible for me. I have been trying for the past 5 years. Literally never used protection. Im coming to a stage where i feel depressed. I have stoped going to family functions. Stopped attending weddings too. I just cant stand kids anymore not that i don’t love them but it hurts me knowing I’m failing to conceive. I honestly feel like a failure. I cant give my husband a family i feel disgusted where i just want to run away and lock myself somewhere where no one can find me. I dont know how ling i have to stay strong and keep trying.

The struggle is painful. Only talking about it as i know i need to and i find it hard to mention it to people close to me