After 2 failed relationships totalling almost 16 years, trying to get pregnant with the previous "men", one of which got a vasectomy after only a year of being with me because he didn't want to go through the child support thing and seperation of the family again. Both "men" were on meth during our relationships, my husband's addiction was completely unbeknownst to me; the one I married also had a child previously that he had never seen so I never got to meet her. I thought something was wrong with me that he and I couldn't have children, I did all the tests, took meds to "help" me get pregnant, which only made me feel worse and complicate things for me even after a whole year after I quit taking them. I wasn't going to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> because I didn't want complications with my body anymore. I had become content that I was just going to be a step-mom to one awesome kid, the kid from the vasectomy guy. I left my husband of almost 6 years in June and met Matt in November, my new boyfriend. Matt already had a kid that was an adult, so the step-mom thing wouldn't be sooo awkward with him, still haven't met him yet though; he is already old enough to be in the military and overseas. Matt and I found out New Year's <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> that we are pregnant! I am still coming to terms with the fact that I get to be a mommy, I cry with joy sometimes because it is still kind of sinking in. I have wanted this for so long and I am so nervous and excited about our future together! Everyone tells me that I am going to do great but being 36 and having my first child is freaking me out quite a bit!