My husband might be gay?

I need help here. My husband (of 6 years) just recently told me about sexual abuse and even rape from his childhood that I had no clue about. I mean I knew something was wrong and his family is a mess, but he never told me about the abuse until recently. He didn’t want to talk about it for all the same reasons/stigmas most men don’t. He didn’t want me to think he was vulnerable or gay etc. Those were his words. I didn’t judge him or anything, I just listened and we cried together and I reassured him i loved him and it didn’t change anything..and I asked him how he needed me to support him through it. I wish he could see a therapist but we’re very low income and can’t afford that I’m sure.. anyways. A couple days later I see these texts on his phone. I confront him. He says he wasn’t really gonna do it and doesn’t know why..he insists he has no desire to be with a man and it makes him feel “gross”.. (I asked because I’m open to letting him experiment if he needs to and I told him that, but only if he’s upfront and not cheating on me). Anyways. I don’t know where to go from here or what to do. Why would he say things like this unless he wanted to do it? And I’m pretty sure they made definite plans even though he says he wasn’t going to do it. There were more emails between him and men off Craigslist too..but I don’t have screenshots of those and it was basically the same type of stuff. Him wanting to “please” these men and etc.. i just need some outside input and maybe other victims of sexual abuse have some insight for me?

Thanks.