How can I feel beautiful again😩🤷🏻‍♀️!!!

This is my 2nd pregnancy, my son is 15 months old... when I was pregnant with him I felt like I was “glowing” as they say and loved how I felt and looked then after having him I had postnatal depression and I felt horrible and disgusting! Just when I started to feel like I was getting my self back I found out I was pregnant again, I’m now 30 weeks and feel so fat and horrible again I’m scared that I will have postnatal depression again has anyone else been through this?