Divorce, counseling and lost feelings help.

My husband and I are going through a rough patch in our marriage he is extremely depressed but doesn't want help for it (he's been in the navy for 4 year). Taking some of his problems (that has nothing to do with me) out on me! When I ask if he wants to go to counseling I get a wishy washy answer (yesss sometimes noo sometimes) so we have counseling session today and I asked him if we was still going. Instead of saying (no) he said no in other words. So I said this is to fix our marriage he said fixing our marriage is the least of his concerns. He said "you don't just lose feelings for somebody over night, and I don't know if I can get those feelings back". After he told me that yesterday I bought tickets to Vegas for us. We never been on a trip together alone so I thought that would have been great. When I tell him he doesn't even say a word.....

Later in the conversation he goes and say you know what let's go to counseling. But I really just want to cancel our counseling session. This is so funny to me because some days (a week or 2 recently) we had a few disagreements and then be right back okay. Then he comes home today like this. What should I do should I just cancel my session or go. I want my marriage to work. We have been fighting about our marriage / divorce for 2 months now. We have two kids been married for 3 together for 4. I am 9 weeks postpartum so I'm really all over the place. He made me spliy out savings down the middle, we are splitting income taxes down the middle. He is always on his phone , never want to talk about our relationship. He doesn't tell me sometimes where he is going, he stays the night at friends house now. I've been trying to fix our marriage while he doesn't want to and pushes me away. We used to be best friends and now we are like enemies. Help.... No rude comments please