First time mom

I'm just writing to express my feelings.. No negative comments. It's hard to be first time mom specially if your family is fully traditional. I'm going through bad phase I have 2 months kid not sure why he cries, how to console him.. Upon it I feel I'm weak hungry all the time. I'm also upset I'm not getting time for myself bcoz you don't what will baby schedules. My mom is also not supporting since she working woman she feels it's burden to look after us. I feel I did wrong time by giving birth. I have leading peaceful life. :( I feel my life is over and time is also not passing.