a year ago

a year ago today i found out i was pregnant with our angel. while i thought going through our due date was going to be hard, today is hitting me even harder. i’m a total wreck. i’ve been okay since actually losing the baby, but now i’m just a wreck. i can’t stop crying and feeling guilty for being so happy about carrying our rainbow. i want my first love back. they should be here. they would be almost five months old now. life’s so unfair sometimes. anyone have advice on how to get through the next couple days?