Irritated and shaky

People always have to comment on something that I say or do, it’s honestly so frustrating I have severe anxiety and seeing hate comments or side eye stares or anything it really just makes me upset and mad. I also have bad anger issues and it’s to the point where I say bad things and I can’t help it, the more the anger the more the anxiety and if you have it or know of it they are not good friends to be mixed here, I’m tired of low women power on this app too I have issues and sometime when I share stuff and don’t receive the help I need at the time it lowers my self esteem especially since people can hate from a screen. Bullied since 1-7 grade check, I’m not newbie to cyber bullies or real life ones you’d think being a freshman it would change but it doesn’t. It just leaves a mark on yourself. So many imperfections I could name about myself here, but I don’t, I really don’t expect pity, I never needed it and I never will, but where’s the love when will people give their support so to let go of all my feelings, fuck you to everyone who called me pathetic, eat shit to everyone who body shamed me, your an asshole to everyone who told me to kill myself, and this is my fucking life to cyber bullies and haters, you want to know why because I’m so sick of people who hate from the screen, because none of them would ever say it to my face. So if you ask me the pathetic person here is the one who does any of those and doesn’t support another woman no matter what or stand for eachother because people rather stand up for a mean inconsiderable asshole, bully, or trash person, rather than do the right thing.