Gender disappointment but still happy

Today I found out I'm having my third little guy. This will be my last little as my husband will be getting a vasectomy after baby is born. I'm a little heartbroken bc I will never have that little girl I longed for but I am also happy because my 15 mo will have a little brother he will be able to bond with (my 1st is 7 years old) they will be close in age and I look forward to see how their relationship flowers. I love my baby none the less. And am a little disappointed but still excited to announce I will be 100% a boy mom.

I do want to vent a little. Being the only daughter and having no sisters has been really hard for me. I LONGED for a sister growing up and even as a old as fuck woman I long for that sister relationship. I havent been able to find it but I've been pretty close. I absolutely love the relationship I have with my mom and I feel horribly sad when I think about the day I lose her bc I will never get to have that type of relationship ever again. My heart does hurt a bit today I won't lie but I love my little nugget. Please dont take this as bashing my sons I am just mourning the daughter I will never have.