Sad cry

So yesterday evening my best friend/ cousin called me her name is racheal her and her bf have been dating for 5 months she asks me if I'm sitting down I said well actually laying down but yes. She tell me she has news for me and bc my grandmother hasn't been doing well I said good or bad news trying to get myself ready she said amazing news I said ok great tell me what's up. She tell me and they are engaged I say omg congratulations are you sure this is what u want she said yes I said then congratulations I'm so happy for you she then tell me I want to tell you something else I'm just shoot what's up hun she tells me they are pregnant I freeze like WHAT?! She says yes we were planning on getting pregnant for two months didn't think we would get pregnant so soon but we did and now we are getting married. It took everything in me to sound soo happy for them bc I am happy for her but as soon as we got done talking and I hung the phone up I ran to my husband with tears running down my face. I completely shocked him he was so worried thinking someone had died but I was able to calm down slighty in his arms and tell him why I was crying he understand and held me tighter then before while I cried harder. I felt horrible that I was crying on someone amazing news but I was also pissed off why do some women get pregnant so easy and some don't! I also cried because I haven't gotten pregnant in 2 years and the only person I know I can run to for help (my mom) passed away 4 years ago. She wasn't able to have kids so she adopted me and my brother and became the best mom in the world so when I am having such a hard time even getting pregnant I wish I had her to turn too. I just hate that my best friends news crushed me so bad like I felt like I lost a part of me even though its amazing news for her. I just felt like I will never be able to enjoy being pregnant never enjoy feeling my own child kick me in the ribs lol funny how some pregnant moms hate that but I just wish I could have that! Sorry I'm ranting I just needed to vent because I felt like I lost apart of me last night and I still feel like crying today too.