I am 5 months pp...

& I am completely in love with my babygirl. But just not so in love with myself anymore. I am constantly putting myself down bc I feel I am not a good mother, comparing myself to other moms. Hardest part is seeing how other moms “bounced back” after their baby , & I see myself still with all the pregnancy weight. My sex drive is at a negative right now, I feel disgusting having sex. I feel like me & my husband are letting our relationship go down hill. I have no energy to do anything around the house. I just enjoy being around my daughter. I have lost 3 babies before having my daughter,my baby boy on November 21st 2018 right before getting pregnant with my daughter & I feel like I took it well at the time but during my pregnancy I was afraid it would haunt me after having my daughter & don’t know if that’s what’s happening. I am just venting , please don’t judge me.