Scared TW Miscarriages

The last year and a half has been really horrible for my husband and I. With 3 horrific miscarriages, and a doctor who couldn't care less about helping me i felt completely trapped. I sunk into a deep depression, and have honestly starting using alcohol heavily in the last year to attempt to numb the pain. There is a silver lining here, because we moved to another state 5 months ago, and I got a new doctor who truly cares. She found a very large Polyp blocking the entry to my uterus, had it removed immediately and told me that was almost certainly the reason for all of our issues.

Now I have one more full cycle until I can try again, and I am so so excited, but so very terrified at the same time. All I want is my little Rainbow.