Oooooo let me tell ya.

I met this man, 25 years older than me. He seemed perfect. Everything I wanted, needed. Was mature, respectful. Then as time went on, we moved in together.

He helped me with my kids. Was beyond financially helpful with them. My kids love him. He made me feel beautiful. Made me feel like I was a good mom and worth so much.

But then I caught him on a dating website. I was ready to walk away. He begged me to stay. Said he didn’t know if we were gonna be serious or not. Didn’t know if this was the real deal. Said he thought I was going to find better and leave like all the other young girls do. So I forgave him.

I clearly have trust issues with him now. He has a female friend, i started having issue with them. She’d talk shit on him to me, I wouldn’t stand for it. She’d lie and beg him to leave me and “move into her spare room”. She cheats on her partner and my man condones it, meanwhile when my friend cheated on her man, he made me quit being friends with her. He won’t drop this friend though. Hell get in my face and scream at me when I have an issue with them talking and stuff.

Then last week, I told him to leave. My kids were gone with family and I was tired of the bullshit so I told him to pack his shit and go. This man threw a hamburger at me. So I threatened to call the police. He chocked me. Like threw me up against a wall and choked me. I didn’t call the police out of fear. He threatens to kill himself etc. I’m not even allowed to work and yesterday I wanted to wear a skirt I bought and he told me I couldn’t “because it’s too cold outside”. If I get dolled up or shave etc, hell accuse me of getting ready for someone. I’m at home all the time and I never can get away from him. My sister asked me to come over and have a girls night. He told me no, not without him, because my sister might be trying to set me up with another man.

Like y’all. I’m done!! I posted earlier about how he got mad I wouldn’t let my daughter have more than 2 deviled eggs because she will get sick. I asked him 30 minutes ago to help me do laundry and clean the house or help me cook because with 3 babies and all this shit to do, I’m exhausted. And he also because he hasn’t worked in 2 weeks and he can help!! And he told me not to cook for him anymore, that he’ll just starve. Then stormed outside and is lying down in the garage. Like I don’t have time for this bullshit.

So he can act like a child. I’m applying for jobs. I’m getting a job. And this man will be out of my home and out of my life by the end of the week. Bet on that.

Oh and then he comes back in and slams the door waking up my baby. And then goes back outside again and slams the door.