Baby girl was born 02/02/2020 at 38 weeks and 3 days. Scared us right after birth and wasnt breathing right NICU came in and had toput her on the cpap for about half an hour then she was okay but then her bilirubin levels put her in the high risk category. They repeated labs and she was still high risk so we had to use the bili light blanket all night the last night in the hospital which made for a very difficult time for both of us especially with trying to feed her. Had labs done a 3rd time and she dropped to the high/intermediate catigory so we got to go home at noon that day but had to go to the pediatrician today to check her levels again. She is back in the high risk zone and we have to go to the hospital for labs again tomorrow and could end up back in the hospital for more phototherapy. My heart is breaking for my baby girl. We both spent half the last night in the hospital in tears and I dont know if I can handle that again. I hate not being able to hold her and hear her cry it tears me apart. Praying everything is okay tomorrow. Not ready for her to grow up at all especially with her stressing us out like this from the second she was born.