What??! I don’t believe it... help!

Elizabeth

OkY so. I lost my second pregnancy right before thanksgiving, or well found out I lost it and then, it took a week almost to pass everything out. I’m supposed to announcing the gender this month or was I should say. I had a period last month and didn’t think much of it. And then we had unprotected sex. Big whoop? It took us forever before we got pregnant before without trying so I doubt we’ll get pregnant again honestly. Well. I’m 4 days late. And I was like I’m just gonna test just to be sure. But it’s gonna be positive. I really didn’t think much of it. Didn’t have too much of a feeling besides some major cramping before I was supposed to start and cravings and being exhausted all the time again but I’m a daycare teacher so I blame it on that. And then I also like weird food sometimes anyway so that’s not a biggie. I took a test yesterday but I didn’t do the test right and it also came back negative. So I was like okay whew not pregnant that’s it I’m done with sex because I dont wanna lose another baby. But then his mom dreamed we had a baby and it was a girl last the night before last night. And I am still late. So I bought a test last night and took this just now before I get ready to head for work... to me it’s pretty faint so I’m gonna buy a double pack today after work and test again tomorrow morning without any knowing again. I’m just so scared of the chance of being pregnant and then losing it again...