What does this mean?

So this dude ate my vagina yesterday. I shaved washed.... did everything I had to do to get prepared 🤨 so he was doing his thing until I said stop then he tried to put it in but I was ltoo tight because I haven’t had sex since July pus his penis wasn’t all the way hard and he asked to go to the bathroom. He came out the bathroom like 5 minutes later saying he had to go to work? What does this mean because I keep beating myself up about it and I texted him once and he didn’t respond 😒😭