I just want to vent. Sorry if this post is just everywhere. My husband of 10 yrs told me he is not attracted to me anymore. He recently lost a lot of weight and is fit.

I know im not an Instagram model but he made sure to make it clear that he isnt attracted to me. He told me he cant hold an erection when he is intimate with me, but is able to keep it while watching porn.

I recently lost 30 lbs and just found out im 13 weeks pregnant. My body is just going to go downhill from here. I honestly feel like i cant enjoy this pregnancy anymore.

He constantly tells me hes not attracted to me. That he wants me to leave. (We have two kids and one on the way) hes not happy. He wants to be alone with the kids and for me to disappear.

Ive gotten to the point where i honestly dont want to exist anymore. I know it sounds harsh. I have two beautiful kids and my nugget in the oven, but i just feel so worthless. Everyone would just be happy if I was not here anymore. Id be one less headache and one less fight. I dont have anyone to talk to. I have family and friends but they only see my happy shell. None of them know what emotional abuse i endure every day.

Emotional abuse is just as real as physical abuse.

Being a housewife doesnt help either. One day ill be happy. I strive to try to stay sane for my kids. They dont deserve to see their mom cry to sleep every night. Not one day goes by with out him reminding me of how useless and worthless i am. He reminds me his house is his and even if i tried to take it away i would never be able to afford to pay the mortgage and bills.

He is a driver and he works evenings. I stay at home because i have a toddler and daycare is expensive. I cook, i clean i do everything in the house. I wait on everyone hand and foot. What do i get in return... hate. Insults. Reminders of how useless i am.