So a little shy of two months ago, I had an emergency c section trying to save my son, unfortunately it was too late, and he didn’t make it. Let’s call him Aaron. (The name we chose could potentially give away my identity, and I don’t want friends who also use this forum to find my post) Now, one of my close friends has a son, who is now 7 months old, and aside from them having the same color hair they look nothing alike... however, I’m having the hardest time remembering his name, and every time I look at him, my brain wants to call him Aaron. For those who have lost a child at full term, did you struggle with this or anything similar? I feel like I’m going insane, and maybe like because my son was gone and I couldn’t bond to him maybe I bonded with the next infant I held? I don’t even know if it’s possible or makes sense... I don’t have anyone I can talk to about this, as the person I’d normally talk to is the baby’s mom...

Bonus question: if you’ve been through something like this, what we’re some things that helped you get through it?

I know I need counseling, we just can’t afford it right now. Please be kind, I already feel mentally unstable and I really can’t handle any more negativity. I just want things to be normal again 😔 for those of you who are Christians, please pray for myself and my family as we are all really struggling right now.