Hey everyone, so I just wanted to get on here and voice how I feel about things.

So, me and my boyfriend have been trying to have a baby the past couple weeks/ almost a month.

And I’ll all honesty, In the beginning of trying to conceive a baby he was causing so much stress everyday, asking me where I was at, what I was doing, where I went, accusing me of being a cheater, doing sketchy things etc (but POSSESSIVELY)

So we’re in this weird situation, where we’re not sure if I’m pregnant yet, or if I’m not. I had so many weird experiences with tests, some positive some negative and I went to the doctors and they ran a blood test on me to check for SURE, and I have not gotten my test results back yet.

So were in this yes or no pickle type of situation.

So tonight, I brought up the conversation of

hey if I am pregnant, what are we going to do? And if I’m not are we going to stop trying?

I only said this, because going to school has became an open option for me now, and if I already am pregnant I still am going to school, but this is a 18 month program/degree.

I said “hey if I’m not, maybe we should stop trying. So I can get my degree, work a bit and be a little more prepared financially because I don’t want to be struggling SO much with having to deal with costs of items the baby will need, etc.

( I’m thinking mindfully and logically because I CARE)

And I do not think I’m in the wrong for this, and it just shows how much I truly care (am I wrong?)

BUT he told me in his own words which was said to me “if you have a baby with me it would solidify all of my doubts I have for you and know it’s real ”

I’m sorry, but that caught me differently because

I never want there to be a situation where a life has to be brought into the world for someone to feel “solid” about me.

It made me cry, but it also made me think.....

was he going to rely on the baby being born to be finally “solidified” with me in our relationship?

Please tell me, I honestly feel I am completely in the right state of mind as I should be, but what he said was COMPLETELY SAID OFF GUARD to me.