He died again...

I’m 15 weeks. I’ve been using Doppler everyday due to MMC in past.

There was a clear heartbeat last night but nothing today. This is the 3rd second trimester loss in 12 months.

I feel like dying. I’m headed to ER to confirm. I’m a nurse so feel confident with Doppler and assessment.

I can’t believe I need another D and C. I feel so depressed and sad and just dead inside. Why do these babies never stay with me. Why can I have a chemical at 5 weeks. Why why why.

I hate my life so much.