I feel like I’m going insane

I feel like my world is being pulled apart

Physical pain with no known cause

Mental exhaustion from memories past

Tears

Panic

Dead ends

Stress

I can’t keep up with life’s demands

I try

I fail and people get mad

I’m drowning

Please save me

Gasping for air

Like an exit sign flashing

Unwanted thoughts rush in

I’m frightened

I’m scared

Terrified that one day I will actually follow through

Not many things keep my grounded

Just their faces

Innocent and loving

I cannot leave him without a wife

I cannot leave her without a mother

They won’t understand

But I’m dying inside

I don’t want to leave

But the thoughts hurt so much

It’s just a bad day

It’s just a bad day

It’s just a bad day

It’s just a bad day

I’m praying

I’m screaming

Show me the light

So I can be strong

Push the thoughts aside

And let go of what is wrong

I don’t want to be sick

I don’t want to hurt

I want myself back

I’m lost

I’m hurt

Please make it stop

Please make it end

Please get me out

From this dark cold end

Show me a sign

Give me some hope

Anything

Please

Just keep me afloat