Advice ..

Okay I’m not sure how to deal with this situation.. me and my bf have been together going on 4years this June & i will be 7 months pregnant next week . We have been through a lot of things together literally. But this past year of ‘19 our relationship been a roller coaster! We have been physically with each other and verbally. And I know that’s not good but I don’t know what makes me go back to him I just do 😩 but I want to stop . I want to get out of it. Even now he still get physical while I’m pregnant mostly about if I don’t do something he wants me to do or if I dont take him somewhere if I tell him to hold on for sec he gets verbally abusive and sometimes physical and it makes me so sad and mad I cry then he’s like I’m always crying and I’m stressing the baby out like it’s my fault why I’m crying or something. And then when I get my things to leave he apologizes and take my keys or my phone so I won’t leave . And I tell him he’s trying to control me but he doesn’t see it that way ... at this point I’m just really tired of this and I wanna leave but I feel like I’m not going to leave him I just Idk I really love him and I know he loves me but you don’t hurt pple you love