Girls I need real help

As some of you know, 3 days ago i found out that my boyfriend of 6 years had cheated with 2-3 different girls.

I immediately dumped him of course and kicked him out of our apartment that same day. I haven’t seen him since then.

I’m currently LOSING MY MIND! I absolutely hate being here alone. I hate not having someone to talk to about my day. It is basically impossible for me to sleep at night. I have not slept alone in YEARS!!! I’ve been up since 5 am both nights. I haven’t made myself dinner since then.

I’m finding myself so close to texting him. I just want to know where he went. I know i know everyone is going to say that I’m crazy or stupid for even thinking about him but I just don’t know what to do.

I’ve devoted my entire life to him and now that he’s not here.... I’m so stuck. I know its only been two days 😭😭😭 I don’t know what to do. If anyone has experienced something similar please let me know. I’m all out of options here