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Today was one of those days. My daughter is sick, teething, and constipated. Her dad is out of town and I was excited for it to be just us girls. Nothing made her happy today and I found myself getting irritated more then once. Then sad because I was getting irritated. I tried every trick in the book to make her comfortable and happy and she was so angry and sad today. I don’t know her feelings or thoughts on how she’s feeling and I wish she could just tell me. Sometimes I feel like there’s nothing I can do to help her. I love being a mom but today was hard and I know I’ll have more hard days down the road. But my love for her is above and beyond breakdowns and tantrums. It took a hour to get her to sleep. Rocking, singing, bottles, head rubs and when she finally passed out in my arms she giggled. After all of that she giggled. I took my couple extra minutes of just holding her and then put her down, started a bath, put on a face mask, lit some candles, and poured a large glass of wine. I’m grateful for another day with her and to let her know I’ll always be there for her.