I think I’m done !

So I’ve been with my boyfriend for 4 years and now I’m just coming to a point where I no longer want to be with him anymore.

Everything is just so boring. He never took me out on a date. I would always mention about going out somewhere and he would always talks about how he doesn’t like going out or the restaurants I name, he don’t like.

He never tries to make time for me or give me attention. He would always come up with excuses on how he’s too busy.

At some point I be feeling like he’s trying to be in competition with me. He would say and do things shady towards me without trying to be directed.

Our communication with each other sucks. He never talks about nothing and when I try to come up with conversations, he would always be so dry and never try to engage.

I honestly feel like all he cares about is sex. He claims he don’t and how he loves me but I don’t think he’s genuine at all. I want him to show how much he cares and all but he doesn’t show me nothing.

Everything with him and the relationship is just toxic. I hate on and off relationships. I just want to be with someone without breaking up all the time, where we are able to communicate and talk out our problems.

I also noticed how he only comes to see me is when I ask or tell him to other than that, he never tries to see me on his own without me saying anything. And every time he comes over, we would always have sex then he always want to get on his phone watching the same videos on YouTube instead of being laid up with me and just talking about things in general.

It’s so much that I can say about this whole relationship but I already typed a lot lol. But I no longer want to be with him. It’s like he’s forcing me to stay by saying “You not going nowhere” and “We ain’t make 4 years for nothing”.

I love him but I would rather love him from a distance. I want to completely move on and hopefully meet someone that can treat me better.