Hate pumping

Working moms or those who have to pump for one reason or another - how are you finding motivation? I enjoyed ebf until I had to go back to work when my baby was 4,5 months. I knew I’d have to pump and I’ve been doing so... But lately I started really hating it, more and more every day, to the point of putting it off and then seeing my supply dropping and beating myself up afterwards. I started adding 1 bottle of formula here and there at around 7 months but it wasn’t even daily. Well now I have to add 2 bottles daily and I still pump 2-3 times a day, she breastfeeds only early in the morning right after waking up. She’s 10.5 months and I am counting days till she turns one so I don’t have to pump anymore. I wanted to feed till 18 months but now I’m pretty sure I won’t and I feel guilty and lazy. Even right now I’m supposed to pump but I’m writing this post instead. 🤣