OVERWHELMED

Sooo just went to get an ultrasound. I’m 9 weeks and 5 days. Just heard the baby heartbeat. You guys I’m terrified. The relationship with the father has been terrible for the past few months. So much so that I didn’t want to bring a baby into this but I also didn’t want to abort. I have no idea how to feel right now. Like is this my life??? Someone help advice. Message.