Husband masterbating to porn

Me and my husband just welcomed our little girl in November everything was going good until I started noticing that he kept masterbating more and more and that’s when I started to let him know that I didn’t like him masterbating all the time because we live together now I want to pleasure him and he agreed to stop but caught him yesterday it’s been awhile it makes me mad because I always ask for sex and he don’t want and he always says no and to not ask for sex that I should buy a dildo it makes me feel awful because I just had a baby and right now I’m very big and feel nasty and him refusing to have sex and masterbating to porn makes me feel ugly and nasty 🤦🏿‍♀️😭