Not finding love

I’ve been feeling very down lately. I’ve had boyfriend in the past and have mingled with many guys. But for some reason none of them ever last. I was talking to someone since of October and I just had him tell me that last time we hung out he felt

Upset being with me... and that really hurt. I tried to take it as a grain of salt and I apologized and said we can be friends. But that really hurt me. I did t tell him it did. And he didn’t really explain how. He’s also been hurt in the past and feels damaged but I’m not a negative person nor did a bring anything negative up so for him to say that hurt. So idk am I looking for

Love in the wrong places... is it me? Like I don’t l know what I’m doing wrong. I’m focused on myself and I’m a positive person but for some reason love just isn’t coming my way and I’m not

Understanding why and it’s very frustrating because it can be lonely sometimes and I wish I had someone

To talk and hang out with and care for... idk..