Situation-ship

I been with this guy going on 4 years and our first year was amazing, it was like a Cinderella story minus the evil step mom but anyways we been off and on for the last 3 years and now that we live together, we but mostly me decided to just be roommates and we don’t talk to each other at all. And I’m actually okay with it. Cus I always feel like I’m always tryna change and put my feelings a side for him but it doesn’t do the same. I work 15-18 hour days sometimes and he only goes to school for 4 hours a day AND stays out with his friends and makes it seem like it doesn’t have time to clean up when I make time to clean up and he has plenty of it especially compared to me. He has horrible communication. He instead of asking me how I feel, he will tell me about some girl to see if I will get jealous or if I still care. Ik what I am doing is best, I just wish I didn’t feel bad for doing it.