Hate being in limbo

Offically 5days late, latest ive ever been for my period, im so regular its like clockwork nearly! But still getting negatives! Been feeling really queasy all week, like im just about to throw up! But nothing is reassuring me anything, just wish i could see those two little pink lines like i dreamed of the other day. I haven't even told my fiance anything as i dont wanna get his hopes up to be let down again. And my doctors refuse to do a blood test, they only do urine tests, so theres literally nothing i can do, 🙄so frustrating!!!