I honestly just need to rant

So a few days ago my boyfriend started getting really into Instagram and being an influencer. I'm really happy for him cause he's doing great but there's 2 things that are kind of nagging at me.

(For background we've been together for 2 years)

1. I have been working on and studying social media for two years and haven't gotten the type of growth and fan base he's gotten in the last few days through sfs and commenting on people's posts. He's really cute and in the emo community which I feel likes a bit more supportive and communicative than my niche/community because they share the same music taste, etc,. But still I can't help but feel a little sad that after all my hard work on social media, all the hours editing, doing outreach, and making sure everything is perfect so I can gain a following he surpasses me community wise within just a few days.

That's disheartening but not that bad. He has slowed down the amount he's texted me recently and I just figured he was sleeping or watching tv. But now that he's doing social media and we're both logged into each other's accounts I'm seeing him activley text other people (mainly girls) longer messages were he acts more interested (nothing sexual). I will also rant about something bad that's happening that I really need to talk about and he'll just like a message and give me a short winded answer. But the worst is when I try to formulate something cute to say and he just likes it and goes to message his fans. I get that it's good to keep up with messaging your fans but it's hard for me to watch since I have no one to message except him and my absent best friend.

This is all stupid and I know it but I just can't help but feel a bit depressed when this is going on especially since he went away with his family this week during the normal weekend time that we see eachother so like I miss him extra. I tried telling him all this last night but I just felt bad because I'm also really happy for him being successful on social media and this just made him feel bad. So I just felt like I needed to rant about it to someone else and since I think he can see my account and my friends not very there anyways I could turn here 😔💗