Orgasm

I have never orgasmed before. My bf makes me feel good but i can never get to a point where i start to climax and it sucks. I cant do it by myself either. I read about this and i’m nervous that i broke myself because of what i used to do as a child. i used to squeeze my legs together rlly hard to reach this overwhelming feeling. i read how this can make it hard to orgasm from other things later on. i’m so mad at myself!!!!! and worried that i broke my vag and won’t ever be able to fully enjoy. please help:( this really sucks.