Last day tomorrow

Tomorrow is my last day of maternity leave. I will be returning to work on Saturday. My anxiety about returning to work is already really high, but I’m a nurse returning to a hospital full of either positive or rule out cases of covid-19. Now that I’m a mom, this is the first time in my career that I have felt uneasy about what I do. Over the course of my career I have been exposed to multiple things and never even blinked an eye. 

I’m writing this as I’m sitting in the nursery, feeding my baby a bottle before putting her down to bed and I have tears just rolling down my face. I hate that this is the time I have to return to work now. 😭😭😭😭