I want to kill myself but I have a baby.

My boyfriend and I got into a fight with his entire family because I told him I was uncomfortable with our 4mo old being alone with his mother who’s a known drug addict.

He told me I was controlling, manipulative, a whore, nothing but an incubator to him.

His sister threatened to call the cops on me if I left with the baby.

I am stuck in my room, (we live with his family, not the drug addicted mom though) I have no family to go to, no friends. I feel like a failure of a mother and I don’t know what to do. All I wanted was to keep my baby away from drugs.

I feel like I deserve to die. I have nowhere to go. There’s no hope. My baby has nobody else to take care of him besides his dad/my boyfriend but he works 12hours a day. I want to kill myself but I can’t leave my child