Hopeful, nervous, and crazy anxiety

My SO stopped taking suboxin 2 weeks ago. He’s been on it for 1 year and 1/2 after being addicted to crank and heroine. He has a daughter who is 13. I lost my baby in 2017. It was an accidental pregnancy so this is my first time actually trying to have children. I know we can do it. I’m hopeful. He has been in so much pain the last two weeks going through withdrawal. Today was the first time getting intimate since he went off of it, he wanted to get his libido back up and running. We didn’t even have sex I just gave him head and he came in less then a minute so I know this cycle won’t be for us. He’s wanted to try for the past few months but I wanted him to quit suboxin before we started trying. I want a baby so bad, ever since my MC I have had terrible social anxiety and find it difficult to go out in public. I need prayers and virtual hugs as my anxiety is just through the roof and I can’t stop thinking about everything that’s going on. I love this community thanks for your time