Going. To. Lose. My. Fucking. Shit

I hate being a mom. I just want time to myself and my almost 3 year old and almost 10 month old are driving my fucking insane. Especially my toddler. She never listens, she's always doing things she's not supposed to. I just want to fucking drop kick her sometimes (not actually, calm down). She spends nights at my mom's sometimes but that's never enough, like I don't even want her here anymore. I find myself not loving her because all she does all day is piss me the fuck off. My baby is so needy all the time and I can't even leave him in his highchair with some cheerios to wash the fucking dishes. My house is a dirty messy disaster and my husband barely helps. He works, comes home, goes on his computer then goes to bed just to do again the next day. I'm exhausted, I hate my family, I hate my house, I just want to leave everyone and run away.