i confronted my rapist

so let me start out by saying my life is kinda like a soap opera and there’s a lot of things and plot twists and betrayals that happened but this is the biggest and most recent. so on the night of april 1st to april 2nd i was raped by my ex’s best friend. we had broken up a week before so no i wasn’t still with my ex but i was still in the friend group because we had a really big friend group. i was being petty after the breakup (ik i’m gonna sound like a shitty person but i’m not like this anymore) so when his best friend came on to me and asked me to smoke with him sometime i agreed. i smoked with his best friend (i’ll call him john) and it was the first time i ever hit a dab pen. it was so strong and i was a lightweight. i just felt so heavy and weak and i was in and out of consciousness. yes, i had agreed beforehand i was gonna have sex with him but there’s no way i could’ve consented. he started kissing me and taking off my clothes and said he was putting on a condom because beforehand i told him the only way i’d have sex with him is if he wore the condom. i felt so tired and weak and he was holding me down was i was telling him to stop. later i found out he took off the condom. he raped me multiple times that night.

fast forward a few weeks later... i finally acknowledged that he raped me and tell my best friend and she tells me she believes me and she loves me and she’s sorry she’s friends with him. basically, a few weeks later i find out they’re dating. he dated her to get to me because after i was raped before i cut him off he would try isolating me from my friends and starting drama. so he took her virginity and they had sex a few times. after he got bored after 2 weeks he broke up with her. she told me he raped her and i automatically believed her and was there for her. i started having really bad panic attacks because he was doing it to other girls so i went to my guidance counselor and told her everything and the cop at my school came in and tricked me into filing a police report. i tried to get the other girl to come forward but she kept saying no and she kept postponing the investigation which was hurting my case against him.

the detective talked to her and she didn’t wanna press charges so i told the detective i wanted to drop out of the investigation. i thought it was over

i needed closure tho so i DMed him on instagram and asked him how many girls has he raped and he kept trying to convince me he hasn’t raped anyone and that he’s sorry i misunderstood. then he asks if he can call me and talk about it.

the first thing he said when i answered the call was “ok can you just acknowledge this fucked me up too?” and started apologizing for raping me and said he did it because his moms a drug addict and he’s been mentally abused his whole life. i know he’s a sociopath and that his apologies meant nothing but at least he admitted it

then the detective talked to him the next day and he told him everything was consensual. i’ll insert a screenshot from a few days after he raped me where he admitted to it

he’s admitted it multiple times and there’s a lot of proof but because i was still friends with him for a while after it happened the case doesn’t look good for me