Moved to Florida but just so depressed.

So me and my fiancé just moved to Florida together.. but I’m just soooo depressed. My grandparents are both on deaths bed. And I Couldn’t see them before I moved bc of the quarantine. And I can’t call them Bc they’re hard of hearing and they can barely understand what’s going on. I just miss them and my grandpa has just been put on hospice bc his organs are shutting down. He will not eat (and idek why they wouldn’t put him on IVs to help him before hospice) and I just would do anything to hear his voice or to even give him one last hug! I can’t stop thinking about all the memories with them both. I struggle with sleeping at night bc I just go into thought about it. This quarantine couldn’t of happened at a more worse time. His birthday is this Thursday, and I wanted to spend the day with him and give him his ice cream. I’m sorry, I’m just venting.