Sex drive

Hi ladies I’m hoping that someone can help me here.

My boyfriend and I have been together for four year and have been having sex for two. One thing that I noticed almost instantly when we started having sex was that his drive was lower than mine.

At first it didn’t bother me at all because we were both just trying to figure it out since we were both virgins. It was more of just a learning experience at first.

Well now it’s driving me crazy and I feel awful for it.

I love him deeply. But my drive is much higher than his. And when we do have sex he neglects to do some things that I enjoy. I’ve asked him countless time if he’s okay with doing some of those things (choking, tying up, etc) and he says yes, but the only time he does any of that is if he’s a little buzzed.

We’ve talked about it but nothing ever happens. And I’m extremely frustrated.

I know probably the easiest solution would be fore me to just masturbate, but I literally feel nothing when I do. I don’t like it and it just leave me more frustrated. Even with toys I just don’t feel anything.

I feel so bad because it’s not like he can help it. He was planning to go to the doctor to see what was going on (possible vitamin deficiency or something else), but he couldn’t because of COVID-19.

I know it’s ridiculous but it just makes me feel like he doesn’t want me since I crave intimacy and he just can’t give it to me very often.

I really don’t know what to do. And of course he feels bad about it but there’s nothing he can do. Please help 😞