Ima cry 😒😭💔

I don’t know why I get my hopes up every month when trying to conceive. I’ve wasted HUNDREDS of dollars on PreSeed, ovulation kits, pregnancy test, everything.. just to be hit with being let down on seeing a negative result. IM SO FKN DONE!!! I give up trying for my second and final kid!! I’m so pissed off and angry. But here my sister is just one night stand with her new boyfriend and bam gets pregnant?! She has PCOS and a tilted uterus and said she’s just gonna abort it like what the fuck.. y’all I’m just heartbroken. When is it my turn?! My time is ticking. Hubby gave me a year to get pregnant before he gets a vasectomy and here I am, just crying in the bathroom over a negative test and he doesn’t know it hurts me way more than him... please just give me advice, I don’t know WHAT to do.