I took another test

I fought and fought with my Husband about keeping our baby. I wasn’t ready for another baby. I took a test a few weeks ago and the line was so light. I took another today in hopes that maybe it was false. I have two children a 3 year old and a just one year old. I’m trying to change my emotions on how I feel but it’s so hard. I’m keeping my baby I know things will get better over time. Any ladies with 3 children close in age? Is it that hard and bad? How do you guys cope with it?