Insomnia & crying

I don’t know what is going on. I was trying to sleep for like 2 hrs, I am super sleepy but can’t sleep. So what I did is switched on my fairy lights, put my headphones on and started crying. I don’t know what I’m crying for, I’m just sad about everything I guess.

I’m so tired of everything and everyone and myself. And no, it’s not the quarantine. Quarantine has done me good actually, I like it. I found myself during this time. I’m just feeling things I can’t explain, so deeply. This used to happen a lot before (6 months ago). I’ve found peace with some medication I took for my anxiety. I stopped taking them 2 months ago.

I’m talking with a guy and he’s texted me asking me what I’m doing and I was like “not in a mood to talk right now, sorry” and so he said I could tell him another time. I’m not sure If I want to tell someone about me having trouble sleeping and crying for no reason. I don’t want to come out as toxic and an overly emotional freak. Especially since I can’t explain this with words. I don’t know how to tell him and if I should.