It’s crazy, I’m physically and financially comfortable but I’m in distress on the inside. I’m a first time mom filled with mom-guilt trying to get used to my new life, my fiancé thinks “direct” honesty is comfort and doesn’t really get me when I just need him to give me hugs more/tell me everything is going to be ok more. I also take things negatively. I used to find comfort in food and video games but the baby has allergies and requires me to be dairy/grain/nut free (and I REALLY CRAVE my breads and pastas), and I wanna give her the attention I never got as a child. I just want someone to hear me complain an hour out of the day and just say “yeah, that must be tough but you’re so strong for doing it and you keep doing it like the warrior you are” and give me a hug. I’m sick of the lectures even from my own kin. It’s like they have all these high expectations of me being open with them but once I become open, it gives them ammo to tell me why I shouldn’t be feeling like that or why I can’t be doing that. I’m just sick of the fear of judgements I get for whatever comes out of my mouth, but then I get called “cold” for not expressing my feelings. 😭 I’m just sad right now and I’m wanting strangers to hear me out at this point.